Don't Go

I love you

Though we keep fighting and fighting
And I keep writing and writing
And our feelings get messier
And our thoughts get heavier
And whenever I behold your face I'm filled with emotions that contrast each other 
Like day and night
Like dark and light

I still love you

It's not just the stripes of your stretch marks 
Or the unveiling of your cute crooked teeth when you smile
Or the way you know exactly how to navigate round my body
It's not just the electricity when our fingers meet
Or the way you rub my feet
Nor the fact the when you stare at me I get so high on butterflies
I can't even speak
And I get all meek
And can't tell you how I feel
For real
I'm working on communication still

I love you because you're my best friend

It's more than just the chem that we share
It's the fact I always want you there
Not even just to Netflix and Fill
But just to chill
You're my fave to do that with

I love you though

Yes
Admittedly I miss the romantic gestures
Showing up with chocolates at my door
And I fantisise about candles and rose petals all over the floor
Or a bubble bath that reaches the walls
Or hiding out in the warm in... Finland

But I love you for what you are and what you do

The support that you give is kinda new from a male companion
I know you don't believe me,
You think I reject you
I accepted you a long time ago
You need to know I just want the best for you

Friends come and go
And though it's coming to only 2 years
It feels like the most
I'm covered in loss
And so I made a choice to not give a toss about most people
One of us always leaves anyway
That's not the case with you though

I love you

So 
Don't shut me out
Don't shut you mouth
Don't forget about how free we used to be.
Awkward is not us

So
Don't stop loving
Don't stop craving me
Sometimes I think you were made for me
All I want to be is your friend
Not your enemy

Call it a love letter
Call it a plea
Call it me just being me

Everything says NO
But I say YES
Please, don't go...